hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate.
except that I don't, because I love you.
And that love kills me every time you're near.
It sucks me in to doubt and loss, self confusion and masochistic tendencies.
You're an Abuser and I refuse to be you're victim any longer.
But when you speak it's like heaven's coming down.
STOP SPEAKING!
stopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopit!!
I'm trying so hard to be okay. I'm trying so hard to find happiness without you.
I doubt I can.
But I'm trying.
The least you could do is leave me alone.
The least you could do is walk away.
The least you can do is what you've done...
There are plenty of victims around!
You don't need me.
but I need you.
NO! I DON'T
Idon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon't.
And I will keep reminding myself of that.
OVER AND OVER.
Because heaven is just a snake with an apple, ready to throw me from my perfect world at any moment.
I won't bite the apple.
You don't have the power to make me bite it.
I won't, I swear.
You send me tumbling into hysterics.
Two messages and look at me, a fallen mess again.
WHY DO I LOVE YOU?
I don't love you.
That's simple.
That's a lie.
YOU don't love ME.
that's more like it.
I must remember that,
Even if it kills me.
I won't be your victim.
Iwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon't I WON'T.


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Think of me long enough to make a m e m o r y
Come bless the child one more time
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