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About Me Member General Writer crimson-fatality19/Female/Canada Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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Thu Sep 25, 2008, 3:23 PM
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Matchbox 20 <3
  • Reading: Dirty Girls' Social Club
  • Watching: The Hopeless emote
  • Playing: how long can she go without thinking about him.
  • Eating: my bottom lip. x_X;
  • Drinking: nope.
I HATE YOU!
hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate.
except that I don't, because I love you.
And that love kills me every time you're near.
It sucks me in to doubt and loss, self confusion and masochistic tendencies.
You're an Abuser and I refuse to be you're victim any longer.
But when you speak it's like heaven's coming down.

STOP SPEAKING!
stopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopit!!
I'm trying so hard to be okay. I'm trying so hard to find happiness without you.
I doubt I can.
But I'm trying.

The least you could do is leave me alone.
The least you could do is walk away.
The least you can do is what you've done...

There are plenty of victims around!
You don't need me.
but I need you.

NO! I DON'T
Idon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon'tIdon't.
And I will keep reminding myself of that.
OVER AND OVER.
Because heaven is just a snake with an apple, ready to throw me from my perfect world at any moment.
I won't bite the apple.
You don't have the power to make me bite it.
I won't, I swear.

You send me tumbling into hysterics.
Two messages and look at me, a fallen mess again.

WHY DO I LOVE YOU?
I don't love you.
That's simple.
That's a lie.

YOU don't love ME.
that's more like it.
I must remember that,
Even if it kills me.

I won't be your victim.
Iwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon'tIwon't I WON'T.

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  • Current Residence: Canada
  • Print preference: Matte
  • Interests: WRITING! Reading, composing music to my lyrics, swimming, baking/cooking.
  • Favourite movie: Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy, brother bear, and Swordfish
  • Favourite band or musician: too many >< .. But Nickelback, The Starting Line, September, and Fall Out Boy have to be in th
  • Favourite genre of music: pretty much anything.
  • Favourite artist: Mysticblack5/Oekaki-Baka (same person nyahaha.)
  • Favourite poet or writer: Emily Dickinson, laurell k hamilton
  • Favourite photographer: Erwin Olaf, keizie
  • Favourite style of art: Anime, black and white photography, and photo-manip
  • Operating System: XP
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano
  • Favourite game: "Things" and "Monopoly" yeah, they're board games. I'm awesome like th
  • Favourite cartoon character: Iago
  • Personal Quote: What kind of girl needs a Prince Wanna-Charm saving her? I'll slay my own dragons, thank you.
  • Tools of the Trade: my oversized pens, coil notebooks and my lovely computer.

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:iconjoyker:
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:iconscoutsakaro:
Thanks for the fave. I see you write as well, I hope you will stop by and read my poetry too.
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Thank you so much for :+fav: on my "La Lettre du Passé" :heart:

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Thank you very much for the :+fav:
:3 Its very kind of you.


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